Viability

The phrase "viability of this pregnancy" was thrown around a lot after I found out Emma was sick.

Honestly, that phrase makes me sick. 

Firstly, I am going to start off with the definition of viability per dictionary.com: adj, capable of becoming actual.

When that phrase was used in reference to my daughter, I felt like it ripped her heart beat right away from her. Stripping her of all her living qualities. It made her just statistic on a piece of paper. Like she wasn't a person with a name. Like she wasn't living and just because she would never breathe oxygen in this world, that she was in some way subpar. That she was inferior to anyone that is "deemed viable" for this cruel world.  

My daughter is a person and although her time on earth is done. She is a far better person that most of us will ever be. To me, that phrase is so disrespectful of the life she or any baby that is lost has. Because all of these babies did live. Maybe not in the "normal" way of living, but they lived. And every life deserves the utmost respect, no matter how small. She wasn't just a pregnancy, she was a baby. She is and will always be my baby. She was and is a person. And it is not mine nor any other human beings decision on if her life is worthy or not.

In the end, it seems like none of us are really viable. We all have our time and place. Some just longer than others.